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By Sandra Roth
didn’t like the word
never could enunciate it
my tongue-tied itself
didn’t like what it did to me
played hide-and-seek with my doctors
thoughts confused themselves
crème brulee didn’t tempt me
my head ached
Dr. A’s clever cutting
unraveled my head
I caress my scar
Emma Ejwertz - -Dizzy Arms (CD)
Some of the songs were inspired by a dizziness problem.
See Emma's website, http://www.emmaejwertz.net/
By Anna Jean Mallinson
The shambling creature
who has lurked in me since childhood
--the one who has no language but a bawl--
now lurches in my shoes,
stretches her legs in mine
weighs down my feet, trips me up
as I stagger
through a swaying world:
The landscape seems fractured
by a demented animateur
who makes the sky's plates shift
on one another, as trees, buildings,
the horizon, tilt like items
on a surrealist canvas,
and I myself am the lonely puppeteer
who dangles this listing tableau vivant
from my peripatetic eyes
This poem was written by the author during the early days of her adjusting to gentamicin ototoxicity. Posted 2-2-04.
Anna has also written a book about her experience.
(c) Anna Jean Mallinson, all rights reserved
"OH MY VERTIGO" by K. Kuspa
(sung to the tune of "Oh Suzannah"...)
Oh, I spun so hard, the other night
I thought I was a top
I laid my head and tried to rest,
But it just would not stop!
Oh, the doctor said it was my ear,
The next said it was stress
Another gave me happy pills
He said I was depressed.
*OH, my vertigo!
*What have you done to me!
*I have left the land of sanity
*And am spinning endlessly!
The fourth said my neck was messed up
The vertebrae were skewed
So I went into traction
Just to please this fancy dude!
Another doctor saw me
She said it was migraine
and then she plainly told me
not to come back again!
Another said I'd had a stroke,
Another said, "AMEN!"
The eighth, she said, "A PLF!"
The ninth, he said "MM!"
My HMO is sick of me,
but "they'll do what they can;"
But then, I heard--it was a joke!
I was not in their plan!
K. Kuspa, c.1997
why did my head start shaking that day
and why do all the doctors have nothing to say
left with so much dizziness all i can do now is pray
and wonder if im going to live to see another day
this dizziness has made my life one big mess
its even got me stressed and depressed
it has taken total control of my life
and i cant get away from the pain and strife
i think the dizziness is making me go insane
and i feel like theres something seriously wrong with my brain
now i think i might be mentally ill
because i have to see a psychologist and take some kind of pill
suicide is a everyday thought
and now i will never achieve the goals that i sought
i dont know how much more i can take
i hope this dizziness ends soon for my sake
J D, 1997